HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US!!!!

I cant believe today will be two years since Austin and I got married and September 1st will mark our 5 years that we have been together. I cant get over how quick time is flying by.
I remember when we first met. I was going out with friends from the day care that I worked with.
First I wanted to get a tattoo since I had just broken up with a guy that broke my heart. The tattoo I got meant "Independent". I was so ready to just be single and have a good time and not be tied down to anyone.
We ended up going to Duke's in Addison. Once we got there we kept picking out guys that I could hit on. We were sitting at our table minding our own business then here comes a drunk guy with a pitcher of beer in each hand. Who would have known that he was going to be my husband! I remember thinking "man, this guy is a retard!"
Now, any of you who knows Austin can just picture this. He started dancing and made his way to me(still with both pitchers of beer in each hand)then if his dancing wasn't enough he had to start singing to me too! That is when I had realized I like that retard! LOL
He ended up giving me his number and vice versa. I didn't hear from him for 3 days and then after that we were together every day since.
So, whoever tells you that you cant meet your future husband in a bar is full of crap! :)
Austin, since the day I met him has always been so full of life and the life of the party. He has taught me that sometimes life isn't fair and I can either dwell in that or enjoy life while I am still here. I stress out over money so much but in being with him I am slowly learning that money is not what life is all about. We have each other, we have our health and we have our friends and family. As long as we have all that we will always be blessed because they can NEVER be replaced. Everything else can.

Thank you Austin for coming into my life. Thank you for always loving me even when I am not so loveable. Thank you for always telling me how beautiful you think I am when I never really see it. Thank you for working hard for the both of us even when your job takes you for granted. Most of all THANK YOU for letting me be your wife! I have never been happier in my life waking up with you by my side. I LOVE YOU BABY AND HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!

I Miss You

How was it to be that I now am robbed of such joy
Of watching you grow or finding out if you’re a girl or boy.
Never did I get to hear your cries or even see your tears
Or kiss your little brow and hug away your fears.

I am just left here now with pain and few memories
Of the days that were happy with you inside of me.
For you were loved and wanted oh so much
What I would give just to have felt your touch.

The hours crawl by yet the time does not seem to slow
I want to scream out to the world you are gone, why don’t they know?
How is the world still turning when I feel it should have stopped?
Why are people laughing and living when it feels like I can not?

Not enough tears can be shed to express the love I have for you
No words can describe what all I wanted to be able to do.
I would have just held you and breathed in your sweet smell
Shouted with joy and phoned all the people we wanted to tell.

But this time we called loved ones with the sad news
That too little were you to live among us and we were meant to lose
but nothing will ever erase those weeks we had together
For a piece of my heart you now hold always and forever

A Work In Progress....*

So as most of you know when it comes to money I am very anal and conservative with how we spend it. I have decided I am going to try and be more laxed in that area.
Austin always tells me "We work hard for our money. We should be able to enjoy it."
He is totally right. I feel like I am an annoying/nagging wife when I am constantly saying "we need to save!"

Lately I have been putting that into practice and its been really hard. Once I see the account go down I can feel my heart beating faster. I have to remind myself that spending a few bucks here and there isn't going to hurt us. I don't know where I get this from (MY MOM!)but I really don't want to be like that anymore. I want to find a healthy balance. I feel like its pointless to be as uptight as I am about money. I honestly get on my own nerves with it sometimes!

I was thinking about it last night and I feel the reason I worry so much is because we are really really blessed right now. There are people that wish they had our problems and I get really nervous that in a flash that could all be taken away. With the economy the way it is right now no one is safe. So I always talk about how I want a cushion for just in case. Well, we finally have that cushion so I need to stop worrying.

I have decided I am just going to relax a little and pray. God has never let me down so I have nothing but the greatest confidence in him.
Check with me in a month and see how I am doing. Its going to be a work in progress but I am tired of worrying about stupid things.

This is the bible verse that I go to when I start to worry:
**For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air that they do not sow nor reap nor gather into barns and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not worth much more then they? and who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?"** MATTHEW 6:25